Happy Halloween

A night dedicated to fun costumes, sweet candy and being silly! I used to love getting all dressed up and heading downtown Greenville for a crazy night with all my friends. It was the biggest event of the year.

This year, I decided I would dress up as a soccer player but for some reason I never actually put the costume on! Haha...sucks getting old!

So what did you dress up as for Halloween??

Relentless

I witnessed this absurd act today at a local restaurant that took me back to my waitressing days. One thing I know is that sometimes people have a way of making days worse than they already are.

Kim and I went to Backyard Burger today for some yummy food. While we were there, these two ladies and one fellow came in with attitudes from the start. I felt really bad for waiter who was obviously having a really hard day. The three people placed their order and somehow the order got all mixed up. I believe one of the burgers had a tomato on it when it was ordered without it. The lady threw a fit and started yelling. She stated several times that she wasn't going to pay for her food and that it was ridiculous that they got her order wrong!

Honestly, how hard is it to take off a piece of tomato. It blows my mind how rude and relentless people are especially when all they want is something for free!I think that everyone should take a class in college on how hard it is to work in the restaurant business! It would definitely change some people's minds and hearts when they realize what waiters and waitresses have to put up with!

OK venting session over:)

Homecoming, ECU Style

I went home this weekend and I had the greatest time ever! I wish I could type out all the details but it would be the longest blog ever! Here are the highlights...

Seeing my parents and getting to hug them
Staying with Janis and Joe
Starlight Cafe and strawberries
ECU killing UAB
Yummy CPW's( which I miss all the time)
TKE sober drivers
Running into all of my sorority sisters in 519
Catching up with an amazing guy
Losing my license in 4th Street
Janis wanting to fight the girl in 4th Street, haha
Hugging my favorite Kristen
Haivng a heart to heart with Jarrod
Couch swap with Mike
Seeing the Johnson's
Boston winning the World Series
Making Pookie look at all 2200 picture on my computer
Eating Parker's BBQ
Just being home

I could go on and on... but instead, I'll show pictures!

You all should have been there!

Photo Shoot

So my friends Natasha, Kim and I decided to do a photo shoot this past weekend. And what better placed to make memories, than downtown Nashville!

Here are a few:

It was so much fun to be silly and capture moments:)

Going home

I'm leaving on a jet plane, I don't know when I'll be back again....

I'm going home tomorrow and I'm super excited! I get to see my parents and friends for three days and I'm not really sure what could top it! You never really know how much you miss something till it's not around anymore! I miss home!

Can't wait to land in Raleigh, NC:)

My doctor's visit

So I've had some pretty traumatic experiences lately but yesterday just took it all! I laugh now but yesterday, not so much!

I went to another doctor yesterday because I had been on meds since Friday and my ear infections were not getting any better. They were actually getting worse, so I needed a second opinion. Well, I went to this amazing lady in Cool Springs who took one look into my ears and told me they were beyond infected(not good). So she told me she was going to give me a shot of antibiotics and she was going to give me a new prescription which would clear everything up quickly! I love quick recoveries!

Well, they gave me this shot in my hip, which I hate shots! From the second she injected me which this medicine, I became light headed and I had to lay down. It only got worse from there. After 15 minutes of laying in the patient room, the doctor told me I was fine to go. As I walked to the front desk, I became very nauseous and I dropped to my knees because my head was so light.

So, to speed the story up, I threw up in a trash can while all the nurses watched then I laid on the cold bathroom floor in agony for 30 minutes from stomach pains. My 20 minute doctor visit turned into a two hour drama!

Lesson learned, DON"T get shots!

Cleansing

This amazing lady in my life said something to me the other day that has been stuck in my mind...

She was telling me a story about a tough time in her life when she was so low she found herself screaming out to God, "God why are you letting me drowned like this?" She knew that I had been struggling lately. In was in that moment when she cried out to God, at her lowest point when He spoke to her and said, " I am not letting you drowned, I am cleansing you!"

WOW!

Sometimes when God is teaching and cleansing us, it's when we are hitting rock bottom with no one but him to turn to. He cleanses the filth and sin from our lives so that He can rebuild us...from the bottom up!

REFRESHING, huh?

We're going to the World Series!

Tonight the Boston Red Sox beat the Cleveland Indians to advance them to the World Series! I am super excited and I'm not even going to lie, I jumped up and down with my Sox hat on when the final catch was made. This was just what I needed to bring a smile back to my face!

Now if only there was a way to get tickets to the game at Fenway, haha!

GO SOX:)

My ears hurt...

Not in much of a writing mood tonight!

I've had a rough couple of days between tragedy and ear infections!

Have you ever had an ear infection? I think it's the worst pain ever. I have inner ear infections in both ears and enough medicine to cure cancer. All I want is to wake up tomorrow and feel 100 times better than today! I want my ears to be healed and my heart to not be broken.

Let's pray for that!

a lost treasure

When tragedy enters my life, I find it easy to write words to comfort me. I wrote this tonight for a friend that I will miss.

His face was so genuine and his eyes were so sincere.
He seemed to have this gentle spirit that remain pure and dear.

His love for youth was compelling and his heart for God beamed true
His love for sports was overwhelming and you could see it with every clue.

Laughter can ease the hurt and pain and he was great at creating true fun
I wish that time would take me back to that place that seemed so undone.

How can I create the words to describe this amazing yet quiet man
I never got the chance to know him or listen to his future plans.

His path has abruptly ended and the reason seems so unclear
I question things more and more with every single tear.

I pray that he is safe and that he is resting without the pain
I pray that God is with him, possibly watching a Colorado football game.

You will be missed and treasured! You have pierced our hearts with love
You taught us about true joy and you will continue to do so from Heaven above!

I know I don't reveal a name or any type of detail, but if you could pray for peace and healing, it would mean the world to some heartbroken people tonight!

Endure hardship with us like a good soldier of Christ Jesus.
~Timothy 2:3

Purpose

Your touch can cause the skin to tingle as it trickles to the soul.
Your chocolate eyes can melt the heart but still I sense the cold.

My mind was simply captured and you seemed locked in from the moment that we met,
But now your heart seems to change faster than the colors of the sunset.

Can you see me? The person that you were intrigued to see?
Are you craving moments and dreams or has that addiction turned to sympathy?

I don't want your pity, I've seen it too many times before!
I don't want your comforting words, I'd rather you just close the swinging door.

Your excuses are redundant and you never seem to compromise.
Wait, I take that back! You showed a bit of mercy because of my tear filled eyes.

They say that words a cheap and that time will heal the pain
But advice is so damn costly when you don't understand the game.

One day you will have struggles. One day you will have hardships.
You'll see a cookie cutter world where all is made of plastic.

A regret may come and linger or it may not ever surface
But maybe you will think of me and understand my purpose!

Needtobreathe video

You have to check out this video! If you like Needtobreathe, you'll love it. For everyone who hasn't heard of them, for whatever reason that is, I just want to inform you that this video was created by Daniel Rankin from East Carolina University!



ECU grads are amazing:)

Galatians 6:7

Don't be misled: No one makes a fool of God. What a person plants, he will harvest. The person who plants selfishness, ignoring the needs of others—ignoring God!—harvests a crop of weeds. All he'll have to show for his life is weeds! But the one who plants in response to God, letting God's Spirit do the growth work in him, harvests a crop of real life, eternal life.

~Galatians 6:7( The Message)

Crying makes it better!

Have you ever felt better after a good cry?

I must say that today, my world was completely different after I let tears flow from my eyes. You see, I have had a bunch of things piling up on me for a few months now and I've tired really hard to be strong by fighting back the tears and emotions. Today I couldn't fight it anymore! As those little tear drops were running down my cheeks, I began to feel a sense of relief, a sense of vulnerablility and a sense of just letting go!

What I let go of I'm not too sure yet, but even if I only let go of bottled up emotion, I'm glad I did!

Humm, who knew crying would make things better...

Wonder

Why is it that wonder always seems to capture the soul. It seems that there is always something to wonder about.
I wonder where I'll eat lunch today? I wonder if my family is happy today? I wonder if today will be a pretty good day or an awesome day. We all do it! We all have this sense of wonder built in to our every being.

The dictionary describes the word wonder in three different ways...

The first being a verb stating that wonder is the quality of exciting amazed admiration.

The second is a noun. It describes wonder as a cause of astonishment or admiration, giving the example... miracle!

The third is an adjective and it describes wonder in two ways. "A rapt attention or astonishment at something awesomely mysterious or new to one's experience" and then gives an opposite stating " a feeling of doubt or uncertainty."

Now when I think about the word wonder, I think about all the times throughout my days that I think about things. The things I want to happen. The things I don't want to happen. I wonder if I'll succeed? i would if God is pulling me in this direction? I wonder if I'm obeying? I wonder if I'll meet "THE ONE" tomorrow or if I've already met him and he'll realize it tomorrow? These are consisitant. Consistant feelings, concerns, fears, hopes, dreams, admirations...They're just constant! A constant wonder.

I did it!

I have been wanting a different look for a few weeks now because my hair was pretty uneven. I just haven't been happy with it so today i fixed that problem! i chopped it all off...and I mean all!

Take a look...





So is it me or not???

Sleepy!

I am soooooo tired!

I think I will go to sleep:)

night night

What's so great about North Carolina...

I know I tend to talk about home way to much, but seriously, it's an amzing place!!!

Things that I miss about the amazing place I call HOME...

Cotton fields that you can run and play in
The smell of cut grass and the blades sticking to bare feet
Going fishing on the weekends
Playing softball in the summertime
Getting dirty for no apparent reason
Bojangles

Being only a few miles from the beach
Being only a few hours from Caswell
The smell of salt in the air and the beach breeze
Eating Burger King on the tailgate in the parking lot
Laying under the stars for hours
Hanging out at yam's house
Sunsets on the beach




Chasing lightening bugs in the cool fall weather
Watching the huge oak tree at ECU turn from red to orange to yellow
Eating a CPW's with Janis and Joe every week
Downtown Greenville on Halloween
101 Rotary
My puppy Cambi




Being able to drive home for day trips
Watching Summer play in the hot tub
Christmas shopping with Mama every weekend in November and December
Going to eat dinner with Daddy in the big town of Ahoskie
Yard Sales with Grandma
Mama's food (that's a big one)

I guess there are lots of things I miss! I wish...well I'll just leave it as I wish...

Yield

Think about the word "Yield!"
I know that's not a word that comes up in everyday conversation, unless you are slowing down at a yield sign or you are frustrated because people are yielding instead of merging on the interstate. But just think about that word and what comes to mind when you hear it. I think about slowing down just long enough to see past the small tree blocking my view on the road I'm about to enter on to. To some people this word may bring another picture to mind.

The word "yield," according to Billy Graham has two meanings. On one hand it means "to relinguish or abandon," on the other hand it means "to give." It goes in line with Jesus' words from Matthew 10:39, "He who loses( or abandons) his life...will find it."
Those who submit to the will of God do not fight back at life. They learn the secret of yielding-relinguishing or abandoning- their own lives and wills to Christ. Then He gives back a life that is far richer than anything every imagined.

That's what I need to do...slow down, pause, abandon and just yield to God!

Dorks...

We are such dorks!

Mal and I always find something fun in Atlanta:)

Nature Helps

I had a such a wonderful day today! I was able to sleep in, which always makes a good start.

I met Mal and Carmen for lunch and then we went on a little nature walk! It was so great to just escape everything and see the beauty that God created. We saw several deer walking among the trees and one gorgeous cardinal hopping from branch to branch. Sometimes walking around and just talking helps you remember how great life can be.

It's the simple things that help to ease stress and calm your nerves. It's the laughter that makes your heart forget the pain. It's the friends that make everything come together, create the funny moments and cause you to have fun!

Today was just what I needed!

I want to dance

Oh to dance on the pier one more time...

...that would be so great.

I wish Summer was here again!!!

Something so special...

Tonight I opened up one of my old Bibles and found something that truly brightened my day!
Last summer one of my best friends gave me a sweet note that said...

"I just wanted to tell you that I have so much faith in you Scoot! You can do it. Believe it in your heart. I know I do."
Love you Scoot, Ryan

"Close your eyes and just believe"

He drew a picture of me playing guitar in front of a whole room of stick figures, haha!!!
It's notes like this that make my heart smile! I'm glad I found that sweet memory.

Psalm 143

Psalm 143

A psalm of David.

O LORD, hear my prayer,
listen to my cry for mercy;
in your faithfulness and righteousness
come to my relief.

Do not bring your servant into judgment,
for no one living is righteous before you.

The enemy pursues me,
he crushes me to the ground;
he makes me dwell in darkness
like those long dead.

So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.

I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.

I spread out my hands to you;
my soul thirsts for you like a parched land.
Selah

Answer me quickly, O LORD;
my spirit fails.
Do not hide your face from me
or I will be like those who go down to the pit.

Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love,
for I have put my trust in you.
Show me the way I should go,
for to you I lift up my soul.

Rescue me from my enemies, O LORD,
for I hide myself in you.

Teach me to do your will,
for you are my God;
may your good Spirit
lead me on level ground.

For your name's sake, O LORD, preserve my life;
in your righteousness, bring me out of trouble.

In your unfailing love, silence my enemies;
destroy all my foes,
for I am your servant.

God please help me to get through this rut in my life!
Show me what is out there waiting for me and open up a door to happiness.