Writing about me...and my mask

So I've decided I'm going to try something a little different with my blog!

Since I'm having a hard time keeping up with the daily writing, I'm going to start updating twice a week...once on Monday and again on Friday. This way I can fill everyone in on the week's experiences and then the weekend experiences. Sounds like a good plan to me :)

So this will be my first Monday update...How fun, haha!

I've learned quite a bit this past week about myself and about the life that I've lead for the past 20 some years. I have several fears that seem to effect my daily interaction with friends, co-workers, my boyfriend, etc. One of the main things that I have come to the realization about myself is that I have to liked. I know that's weird and may sound a little like Micheal Scott but it's true.

I have an issue with acceptance. If I don't have it, I stress myself out to the point of sickness and worry about what people are thinking, are they upset with me, why am I being left out, what did I do the cause the rift. It's absolutely exhausting. I want to be friends with all and I do my best to make sure I am fully in tune with people's like/dislikes, etc. So much to the point where I'll pretend to like things, know things, want things in order to make myself fit in.

That's totally not healthy.

It's a mask...several actually and I can't figure out how to take it off.

But I will! Goal number 1: Burn the masks!